How Far Would You Go Not To Break?

Who are you undereath? What makes you tick? More importantly, what would it take for you to break?

We each have our particular weaknesses to be exploited by those for whom it is a strength. In other words, life is getting pissed on from a great height repeatedly, trying not to get wet.
As though, it actually mattered how much we suffer in the open or behind closed doors, we pretend to care for others. Yet, the majorty of us have more significant tasks to devote their attention to. For instance, satisfaction at any cost.
People will say or do whatever is necessary to get what they want. To them, there is little difference between doing the right thing and ensuring their self-interests are met above everyone elses. Truth be told, I sometimes wonder, if there still is anyone who doesn’t, except for me? The world turns, people are not committing suicide en masse, so there must be plenty, right? Wrong! They are too rare…

Compassion is few and far between in this world, but we should never deny its healing potential. Its effects on the mind have the power to attribute less meaning to memories with a high impact on our presence of mind. In a way, compassion serves as a form of collective self-protection. Conversely, when we are denied it for a prolonged period of time, the want for protection is often overridden by the desire for self-destruction.

“Safety is an illusion”

On the surface, we are conditioned never to look too deep. It is the safest way to avoid painful realisations or the horrible truths about the world or ourselves. As a survival and coping mechanism, this serves to prolong life while making it more difficult for us to break our preconceptions. The deeper, we stare into ourselves, the more the question becomes “how long can we stand the pain?” In general, it depends on how resilient and resistant, we are…but our time is limited. Nobody can cope forever. Eventually, we are forced to ask ourselves, if we can continue until irreperably breaking (i.e. breaking while others watch and do nothing) or if we wish to take back control.
At the very precipes of self-destruction, we have already been destroyed in that we have already made the decision to go forward. However, such a choice is only as inevitable as our committment to do what needs to be done for the right reasons. If we believe, we are worthy of mercy, we must be the first to be benevolent to ourselves. If we are convinced, we are deserving of another chance, we must be the first to give it…Lastly, if we are down and out, then we should not hesistate to put ourselves out of our mysery by any jon-violent means available to us.

When picking up the broken pieces of ourselves on the floor, we should truly contemplate how many other times, the exact same thing has happened in order to draw a conclusion. If it has happened too often, the underlying cause should be removed from the equation to guarantee success. However, if the underlying problem is a person, we cant detach from, then the process of resolutuon becomes a tad more ethically tainted…if we wish to persist regardless of the consequences.

In my case, when the disasterous factor is always you, then it is best to cut as many ties as possible. After all, alone is what people like us do best, simply because we have to…simply because it will never change. Some of us make it through to the bitter end, while others take the preferable options of cutting their suffering short. In all fairness, they might definitely be the lucky ones. Hell, even in the worlds worst dump with the most severe case of spiritual amensia, they are more fortunate than the rest. They need no longer be trapped in world, in which their heart is treated as though it does not exist at all. In any eventuality, who would even notice ther absence? Others impose their perception upon them and they are supposed to agree without question or hesitation. They will simply find someone else to fulfill the same role time after time, no matter the damage, they inflict. Worst thing is, more often than not, the next person will actually play along. They do this for a very simple reason: They know no different.

In our world,
The more you care,
The more vulternable you become.

On a personal note, the concept behind relationships has never been difficult for me to grasp. It is a simple matter of loyalty, respect and empathy in order to build a lasting raport. Yet, in practice, the trult real people, we meey in life are very few. They are the ones, we can turn to, when we are in depserate need of a shoulder to cry on and they’ll always be there. They are the ones, who will believe in us, when no one else can. They are the ones, who’ll take us in, when we have nowhere to go.
As may be easily ascertained, such generality no longer exist for a small percentage of the mainstream population, including myself. After a while, it becomes simpler to just detach from the idea instead to be continuously taunted by it.
People like me are those, who sit on an empty bench by themselves and observe people passing by. We watch their interactions and keep wondering, “Is that even a possibility for me?”. Although we have learnt through many years of experience that it isnt, the thought keeps popping up. Hope refuses to perish. The notion, we may belong, cannot be banished from the mind indefinitely. As a deeply embedded part of our survival instinct, it requires extreme measures to be rid of such a notion permanently. By the time, we reach mid-adulthood, unfulilled desires such as that tend to surface far more intensely. They may create a level of inner upheaval but will disappear soon enough, before reappearing during the mid-life crisis.
In any scenario, belonging is a state of mind. To feel as though we belong can either be delusional or factual, but the feeling itself cannot be forced. For instance, if someone doesn’t feel that they belong, they cannot be made to feel more comfortable by other people overcompensating for past behaviour. It simply creates paranoia and angst.

In truth, as a species, we are beginning to lack the very qualities that define lasting relationships of any kind, from friendship to marriage. The loyal are used for their dedication. Respect is perceived as a weakness. Empathy requires more than a few seconds of thinking about another person without thinking “Me First”.

To remove yourself from the equation of life is just this easy. It is an untangling of our attachments and aversions. It is a process through which we let go completely. We do not cease to feel the relevant emotions associated with strong affinity or dislike toward something/someone, we merely cease to react to him externally as well as internally. In essence, the key is to display compassion, but never get mentally involved or emotionally entangled.
It can be achieved without much effort, if one has very little ties to the social foundations of our modern civilisation. Off-Grid living would be ideal, of course, but few manage work and attain such a goal without solemn determination to succeed at every cost.

How To Survive Torture In War

You cannot conquer the mind of a man, if you do not know his heart
…and you cannot win over his heart, if so you do not know his mind

When we think of hard times in the West, we think of homelessness, unemployment or reading about the daily terror attack in the newspaper. We do not think of situations in terms of third world countries, as we perceive our way of life to be above a state, where our societies could easily revert back to the Middle Ages… Although a significant percentage of the global population understand that this may be inevitable, as a result of our modern lifestyle, we simply don’t want the carousel-ride to end just yet.

This leads me to the question, when can we be fully prepared to watch our civilisation fall? A week, a month, or even few years, after finding out? How long until our attachments to the way we live fade? How long until our aversion to the violence and genocide that routinely happens in other countries no longer has a hold on us? Truth be told, we may as well wait for the return of the old Gods… No attachment or aversion disappears on its own. (Exceptions make the rule!) Few reach the heights of comfort without any external stimuli that exhaust their worldly desires.

The war-drums are warming up. Every beat ushers in a new age…Yet, it’s arrival will be marked by the death of millions and destruction of almost everything we’ve come to know. Whether we are ready is irrelevant to our leaders as well as our enemies, as long as the outcome compares to what they’ve had in mind.

Ladies and gentlemen, this is war… Not the average long-distance or turf war, but the genocide of all ethnicities that do not submit to political correctness and/or religious authority.

In view of cultural traditions all over the world, Merkel, Clinton and Abbot paint a picture of women in the modern age… Women in power have become patsies that are incapable of making intelligent decisions with forethought and common sense. We are now represented by women that can be bought for a price and it’ll seal their fate as well as our own.

In Islam, women are commonly mistreated and forced to engage in activities that they’d rather not, but the current imperialistic conquest has given them the time to breathe, as their fathers, husbands, uncles and sons focus their attention elsewhere… That won’t last long. However, for victims of prolonged sexual slavery, those few weeks or months, when they’re not raped several times a day/night, is a blessing… Fear of pain and suffering clouds their minds to such a degree that extreme forms of Stockholm syndrome can hardly compare to how deeply they have been brainwashed. Sadly, they will not be the last. Without anything but blind faith to hold onto, no one resists brainwashing indefinitely…

Whatever happens, it is only temporary. Regardless of what it is, it cannot last. Nothing does. Knowing this, we can survive the unspeakable and the insufferable. Although whatever and whoever is inflicting pain would like you to believe that they can do so forever… They truly cannot.

Silence

As long as you communicate as little information as possible (in the form of opinions, plans), you limit the knowledge others have about you. Information, even false information, is revealing. If you are expected to provide information, don’t give any. Don’t think that by giving information or conforming, religious oppression stops…To the contrary, that gives the impression that the more pressure is applied, the more you will give. It is an endless process.

It is important to remember systematically subjecting an individual to maltreatment is intended to destroy their personality, their sense of identity, their confidence and their ability to function. When we don’t convey or openly share who we are, then those attempting to change us are at a disadvantage. In the case of forced conversion, this is more difficult. It is easier to comply and do as is expected, but it never ends there.

For those that wish to enforce laws, which disempower women of all races with the purpose of enabling immediate gratification for the opposite gender under religious pretences, submission is the key to victory. If an individual does not comply and continues to fight, regardless of how excessive the punishment may become, there is often no other choice than to kill them. However, when there is a scarcity of women, creating a martyr can have side-effects. The more martyrs are created in the name of a just cause, the more follow suit. It should be noted here that life-threatening circumstances can break brainwashing as much as it can reinforce it.

Starvation: In muslim countries, it is common practice to deprive Christians of more than the bare essentials to force their religious conversion to Islam. Often, they are treated worse than African-American slaves, as a result of their religious orientation. Whereas black slaves could sing, practice their own religion and even build families with their own kind, Islam does not allow their slaves to have any of the above. In fact, life-threatening maltreatment is encouraged to force women to convert in the hope that they’ll be abused less frequently.
People die from starvation and prolonged malnutrition every day… In an age, where food waste is prevalent, most are not familiar with how starvation affects mental processes. Most that have experienced anything remotely similar often look at the way we live with disgust. Internally, they fear that they’ll return to their former living conditions, which could easily lead to a very painful death. Only a small percentage would suffer through such an ordeal again without being willing to do anything to avert such a fate.

First of all, it takes a great deal of strength as well as self-control to starve, when there is the illusion of an alternative… After not having eaten for days, the mere sight, smell or sound of food yields psycho-physical reactions, as if a deep, silent rage is brewing on the inside. Hatred for those depriving you, when they have plenty to share, can seem like the only thing keeping you alive. Without that feeling, people often give up… They reach a point, when don’t merely lose hope, they lose something that can’t be regained without years of trauma recovery.
It takes approx. 65 days to die from starvation as long as you keep hydrated. When water is scarce, that time can be halved easily. Without any resources, an individual can survive from 22-26 days without any sustenance. In countries, such as India, it is permitted to end one’s life through a holy fast when spiritual liberation in this life is no longer possible. As irrelevant as this anecdote may sound, this practice has provided interesting information to answer related research questions. For the average individual, it is almost impossible to refrain from eating after days, when food is put in front of them. For example, after groups of survivors were freed from the KZs in Germany, they were provided with food and water. The problem was that they had been starved to such an extent, their bodies couldn’t process solids anymore. Most of what they ate, they regurgitated…Only a handful survived. Primarily those that were too ill to eat anything survived as they did not consume anything until the second rescue team arrived with a nutritional powder that they stirred into the drinking water. After their bodies had adjusted to digesting the liquid solution that provided the nutrients needed for the nutrient absorption, digesting solids no longer had such devastating effects.

On a separate note, food or drink are often used as tools to taunt people in captivity… Although it is often recommended not to eat or drink anything in captivity, when the body-mind complex has been deprived of sustenance for long enough, there is an inner drive to ingest whatever nutrition is provided. In some cases, prisoners of war have been desperate enough to consume their own urine or even the urine of their captors, when they had no other option. In other words, if you’re hungry or thirsty enough, you’ll consume almost anything edible, as it better than nothing. Restraining yourself from doing that takes a lot of energy initially. Your mind will play tricks on you, as the deprivation elicits extreme emotions. The key is to work through them quietly. Think over every thought that comes to your mind before you utter a single word. More importantly, let painful thoughts go. They won’t lessen your suffering, only perpetuate it.

Not So Crazy Side-Note: The desire to consume food comes from the need for sustenance in the absence of enlightenment. The further one looks into this, one understands that the need for sustenance comes from a deep-desire for self-preservation. The rational mind does not comprehend that physical sustenance is as illusory as our physical reality. It is only necessary as long as we are still on the path to self-realisation. Once we are self-realised, eating and drinking are not only optional, they are restricted to clean, vegetarian choices.

Important Note For Women: Reducing the daily amount of food and water prevents pregnancy and can induce a miscarriage, but it also makes it more likely to give birth to females rather than males, if the pregnancy is carried to term. Feel free to do your own research.

Pain: Discard hope of rescue or religious salvation. Hope is a pipe-dream, when pain becomes unbearable. Thinking clearly becomes impossible, as automatic behaviour takes over. For instance, instinctively speaking in other languages, using religious terms as swear words or praying audibly are prime examples of how we can lose control in ways that may have unfavourable consequences. Escaping pain is impossible by distancing yourself from it, so embrace it. Go beyond like or dislike to a place where none of that matters and pain has no hold on you. Inflicting any kind of pain often involves prolonged time-periods of close, excruciating confinement with no human interaction. Resistance creates tension, which in turn creates more pain… As difficult as it may sound, relax your body. Aim to relax all your muscles and let go of all tension. Let pain be your teacher to attain freedom from suffering.

Whatever happens, the first and most dangerous approach relies on you to go the distance. The closer you let them bring you to death, the more you create a dilemma as to whether you should be saved or not. “Logic dictates that if you aren’t saved, then you have spared yourself a much longer and more painful death. You must, beyond everything, believe in the sanctity of your being to take such an approach. You must be willing to lay your life on the line, from whatever shattered sense of identity you still retain.”

Another approach is to abandon all reasoning. To reduce yourself to a level of instinctual awareness, and try to stay alive. Think nothing. Focus on the breath. Witness every thought as a passing visitor. Do not look to the future, instead empty your mind. “Concentrate only on obtaining oxygen. You will either succumb, or they will deem the operation too high a risk to continue. Again, if they deem you an asset they will not force your death. If they execute you in such a fashion, your execution merely happened early.”

Sleep Deprivation: As the most effective method to break down all mental barriers, sleep deprivation is the cornerstone of warfare. It accompanies almost all forms of torture. Again, resist as little as possible. Throw yourself into disorientation and carry on. It may drive you temporarily insane, but that is still better than the alternatives. You may speak non-sense and see connections that you otherwise wouldn’t, yet as long as you remain at least a little self-aware in a disorientated state, you can minimise the damage.

For those already living near mosques, the loudspeakers echoing across entire street-blocks are just an example of how openly fanatical religious practices can intrude on the day-to-day lives of others without them patrolling the streets. Merely a week of coping with nightly sleep deprivation takes its toll on the mind. After several weeks, things begin to get blurry… Now, imagine that taking part is no longer optional. Imagine that your life depends on cooperating (with a religious institution that you have no respect for). Think of the stress created by physical violence and forced conversion in addition to extreme deprivation as the go-to strategy for Islam. Preying on basic needs by driving a thumbnail into the instinct for self-preservation is common behaviour, as it has worked for thousands of years. The only means to render such warfare strategies useless is to overcome any hold that our basic needs have on us.

The requirement to sleep is the most difficult to work with. The more relaxed we are, the less we are plagued by the need to sleep… Maintaining mental and physical silence greatly assists this process. Also, increased bodily awareness to release tension conserves small amount of energy, which encourages vasodilation, in turn improving circulation.

Isolation: Any form of deprivation is worsened in social isolation. With multiple captors and a single victim, the captive often feels more isolated than in one-on-one situations. As women are frequently kidnapped by religious fanatics and held in groups, it is important to note that every captive will eventually reach a point when converting seems like the only thing that could end their suffering, apart from death. This option seems more ‘acceptable’, as other captives convert. However, as stated previously, subjecting to their will becomes an endless, downward spiral. Pray silently. Speak to yourself. Do whatever is necessary to maintain your sanity, but ensure that you do it quietly in your mind without anyone finding out about it…

Extremes of Heat & Cold: The idea of embracing hopelessness and using your own fatalism to your advantage is only one approach to defend yourself against the temperature extremes. An Eastern method involves the use of Zen meditation, which represents the best solution to endure prolonged extremes of heat. As a coping mechanism for someone locked in a deep freeze, it doesn’t work, because slowing down anything in your body could be suicide. If enough space is provided, the best answer to extreme cold would be to never stop moving. If this is not possible, singing a song or praying has been said to help victims in the past. The abuse of prisoners with extremes of heat and cold illustrates how different situations warrant different methods for holding on.